In 2016 I nearly gave it all up.
Feeling burnt out and sick, I took an opportunity to go and work on a tech project 4 days a week to give myself a break (!). After spending 7 years creating a business that would align with my passions and give me the freedom to do what I wanted to do, I was ready to throw in the towel.
So how did I get there?
Truth be told, I didn’t intend to ever start a business. Feeling fed up with work I decided to do something that I was passionate about. So I enrolled on a homeopathy course and started to learn about the world of natural medicine.
Intending on making a career change, I was captivated by all of the knowledge and possibilities in the world of natural medicine. I felt I had finally found my place in the world… until I realised people don’t make career changes as such to go into that field: the majority start a business [cue freak out moment – and valuable lesson number 1 – do your homework thoroughly!].
Not all was wasted, far from it in fact. After all, I had made a big investment onto this course, and I was going to make it work. So I set about creating my business with drive and purpose. I learned all I could about business and marketing in a way that didn’t feel salesy and gross. And I created a practice that was rewarding.
Then, about 4 or 5 years after I started all of that, I noticed my health wasn’t as good as it should be – especially for a health practitioner. I was putting on weight, feeling wired and tired, had terrible food cravings and insomnia. Classic adrenal symptoms. I went on a journey to heal my hormones and adrenals and learned a huge amount through the process.
There was a lot that wasn’t going right in my life: a toxic relationship I had to juggle outside a growing business, some clients who drained my energy (many wonderful ones but a few energy vamps!) and an unhealthy attitude of over-giving which saw me doing multiple volunteering exercises using energy I simply did not have.I was on a collision course for adrenal burn out looking back now – but as a type A overachiever personality I wouldn’t hear of it at the time.
From here consulted many wonderful health practitioners and coaches who helped me understand what was going on. I learned herbs and nutrition were good but not enough on their own. That homeopathy was wonderful but it didn’t shift it completely. That kinesiology was incredibly powerful but I still had bouts of fatigue periodically.
Health practitioners were amazing with helping me in my personal and health side, but what about the aspects of business that were draining me? I saw business coaches who would cheer me on and give me wonderful advice about business development and self care but quite didn’t understand how much my health was suffering.
What really worked for me in the end?
When I stopped everything and said ‘no’ as a default to pretty much every invitation I created time and space for me. Only when I had that space could I discover what parts of my life weren’t working.
I stopped the things that didn’t nourish me: toxic foods, toxic people, bad habits. I did more of the nourishing things: epsom salt baths, journalling, quality ‘me’ time, a morning and evening routine, EFT, gratitude journalling, gentle exercise and a diet that resonated with my body (basically the stuff I would coach people to do in my health practice!). I worked on loving myself in a way that I had never done before. And I got better.
A spark reignited
Through this experience I came to a new perspective on life and business. I realised I was in the perfect place, and that this experience was a wonderful lesson. That business wasn’t a separate entity, rather an extension of myself. Just like in a natural health discipline we look at the body/mind/spirit as a whole and treat as a whole – I realised our business is an extension of us and needs to become part of that work.
Further, working for yourself and creating a passion-led business is a path of spiritual development. During the course of running a business for yourself you will be faced with all of the things that are unresolved. That could be blocks around charging sufficiently to create an income that can support your living costs, the fears of ‘coming out’ online and telling the world what you do without getting trolled, the blocks around writing and communicating without being judged harshly for the quality of your writing.
And many more.
So that is how I got here. That is how I found myself joining up all areas of my life and aligning my gifts and skills in a way that will support others on a similar journey: a heart centred business owner who needs support not just with making their business a success, but also working on their personal life and health.
If this resonates with you and you’d like to discuss anything I’d love to connect. You can book a free 20 minute call over on my booking page so we can how I might be able to help you.
Here’s to reigniting your spark.